Day #32: A Rose Garden

It's not easy.

This is my admission on Day #32.

Being nice is not easy

Not for me anyway

For others? Maybe.

Me? Not so much.

I thought if I did it enough eventually it would just become second nature, but it is still a huge struggle.

I still feel this overwhelming urge to mumble under my breath, say nasty things, make catty remarks, and above all, gossip.

I still find that my first response is anger, and anger comes with everything I previously mentioned.

I still hear the word "doormat" every time I respond to a conflict with extra communication and kindness. It doesn't matter what anyone says, that word is burned into my brain.

But you know what?

What would have been the point in doing a project that got easy after thirty days?

What would the rest of the blog posts been about?

Day #73: Holding the Door--A Philosophical Dilemma?

I don't think so.

The struggle is what makes it interesting--for you and me. More so for you, I'm sure. But that's fine.

Nobody promised me a rose garden.

One of the most inspiring things I ever heard in my life was the President of my high school at graduation tell my class that though he was proud of the straight-A students who excelled in every class, he was just as proud of the kids who struggled, fell down, failed, and still finished the journey.

It's true what the Hallmark cards say--the journey is what counts.

And sometimes it's hard, and sometimes it sucks.

And it's not easy.

But that's what makes the ending so much sweeter.